Baby A-plus is where it's at. (My sister has a daughter whose name also starts with "A", and my sis calls her "Baby A." So, one of my coworkers suggested our daughter could be "Baby A-plus." :-)) Granted, she also just eats, coos, sleeps and poops all day, with the occasional scratching of her face with her nails-turned-claws but it's quite different, I assure you. She's three-weeks old and is interesting and cute and perfectly lovely.
So, Baby A-plus is now an honorary harvardchick and will make cameo appearances here. In case you're wondering why I'm not naming names, even though probably 100 percent of this blog's readers know me/us, the paranoid parent in me is wary of some whacked out screwball knowing too much about us and where to find us, etc.
Speaking of worry, when I step back from it, I'm intrigued that my thoughts of late have been mostly about the dark aspects of life. I don't think it's post-partum depression, either. There has been something sobering about having this new life in our care and seeing how fragile and dependent her life is. It reminds me, I suppose, that all life is fragile and dependent. And finite.
We've created something that will someday cease to exist. We created and brought a life into the world that we cannot sustain forever. Like all of us, she is finite. That's painful to contemplate. It feels like we gave her an incomplete or broken gift. But there's nothing to do about it but to live and enjoy life as we know it while we're here. So I wonder what she'll do with whatever time she has here. What will her life be like? Will she be happy? Will our love and care for her be enough to at least get her started down a road that's fulfilling and joyful? I hope so. It's both the least and the most that we can do.
